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prussicacidwasusedasaponentincertaincheicalindustries；includingtheanufactureofdyes。afewilligraswereenoughtokillaperson；onelitreinareservoircouldwipeoutaediu…sizedcity。
obviouslysuchalethalsubstancewaskeptunderstrictcontrol。butitcouldbeproducedinalostunliitedquantitiesinanordinarykitchen。allthatwasneededwasaodestaountoflaboratoryequipent；andthatcouldbefoundinacheistrysetforchildrenforafewhundredkronor；alongwithseveralingredientsthatcouldbeextractedfroordinaryhouseholdproducts。theanualfortheprocesswasontheinter。
anotheroptionwasnicotine。froacartonofcigarettesshecouldextractenoughilligrasofthesubstanceandheatittoakeaviscoussyrup。anevenbettersubstance；althoughslightlyoreple. comroduce；wasnicotinesulphate；whichhadthepropertythatitcouldbeabsorbedthroughtheskin。allshewouldhavetodowasputonrubbergloves；fillawaterpistol；andspraybjuranintheface。withintwentysecondsheshouldbeunconscious；andwithinafewinuteshewouldbedeadasadoor…nail。
salanderhadhadnoideathatsoanyhouseholdproductscouldbetransforedintodeadlyweapons。afterstudyingthesubjectforseveraldays；shewaspersuadedthattherewerenotechnicalipedientstoakingshortworkofherguardian。
thereweretwoprobles：bjuran’sdeathwouldnotofitselfgiveherbackcontrolofherownlife；andtherewasnoguaranteethatbjuran’ssuessorwouldbeaniproveent。analysisoftheconsequences。
whatsheneededwasawaytocontrolherguardianandthusherownsituation。shesatonthewornsofainherlivingrooforonewholeeveningrunningthroughthesituationinherind。bytheendofthenight；shehadscrappedtheideaofurderbypoisonandputtogetheranewplan。
itwasnotanappealingoption；anditrequiredhertoallowbjurantoattackheragain。butifshecarrieditoff；shewouldhavewon。
atleast；soshethought。
bytheendoffebruaryblokvistfellintoadailyroutihattransforedhisstayinhedeby。hegotupat9：00everyorning；atebreakfast；andworkeduntilnoon。duringthistiehewouldcranewaterialintohishead。thenhewouldtakeanhour…longwalk；noatterwhattheweatherwaslike。intheafternoonhewouldgoonworking；eitherathoeoratsusanne’sbridgecafé；processingwhathehadreadintheorningorwritingsectionsofwhatwouldbevanger’sauto…biography。between3：00and6：00hewasalwaysfree。hewouldshopforgroceries；dohislaundry；gointohedestad。around7：00hewouldgoovertoseevangertoaskhiquestionsthathadarisenduringtheday。by10：00hewashoe；andhewouldreaduntil1：00or2：00intheorning。hewasworkingsysteaticallythroughvanger’sdocuents。
theworkofshapingtheautobiographywasovingsoothly。hehadwritten120pagesofthefailychronicleinroughdraft。hehadreachedthe1920s。beyondthispointhewouldhavetooveoreslowlyandstartweighinghiswords。
throughthelibraryinhedestadhehadorderedsdealingwithnazisduringthattie；includinghelenel？？w’sdoctoraldissertation；theswastikaandthewasasheaf；whichdealtwiththesybolsadoptedbythegeranandswedishnazis。hehaddraftedanotherfortypagesaboutvangerandhisbrothers；focusingonvangerasthepersonholdingthestorytogether。hehadalistofsubjectsheneededtoresearchonthewaythepanyoperatedduringthattie。andhehaddiscoveredthatthevangerfailywasalsoheavilyinvolvedinivarkreuger’sepire—anothersidestoryhehadtoexplore。heestiatedthathehadabout300pageslefttowrite。aordingtotheschedulehehaddevised；hewantedtohaveafinaldraftforhenrikvangertolookatbythefirstofsepteber；sothathecouldspendtheautunrevisingthetext。
forallhisreadingandlistening；blokvisthadadenotaninchofprogressintheharrietvangercase。noatterhowuchhebroodedoverthedetailsinthefiles；hecouldfindnotasinglepieceofrationthatcontradictedtheinvestigativereport。
onesaturdayeveninginlatefebruaryhehadaconversationwithvangerinwhichhereportedonhislackofprogress。theoldanlistenedpatientlyasblokvistlistedallthedeadendshehadruninto。
“nocrieisperfect；”vangersaid。“i’sureweusthaveissedsoething。”
“westillcan’tsaywhetheracriewasitted。”
“keepatit；”vangersaid。“finishthejob。”
“it’spointless。”
“maybeso。butdon’tgiveup。”
blokvistsighed。
“thetelephonenubers；”hesaidatlast。
“yes。”
“theyhavetoeansoething。”
“iagree。”
“theywerewrittendownforsoepurpose。”
“yes。”
“butwecan’tinterpretthe。”
“no。”
“orelsewe’reinterpretingthewrong。”
“precisely。”
“they’renottelephonenubers。theyeansoething。”
“maybeso。”
mikaelsighedagainandwenthoetocontinuereading。
advokatbjuranwasrelievedwhensalandercalledagainandexplainedthatsheneededoreoney。shehadpostponedtheirostrecentscheduledeetingwiththeexcusethatshehadtowork；andavaguesenseofuneasinessgnawedathi。wasshegoingtoturnintoanunanageableproblechild？butsinceshehadissedtheeeting；shehadnoallowance；andsoonerorlatershewouldbeboundtoeandseehi。hecouldnothelpbutbeconcernedthatsheighthavediscussedwhathadhappenedwithsoeoutsider。
shewasgoingtohavetobekeptincheck。shehadtounderstandwhowasincharge。sohetoldherthatthistietheeetingwouldbeathishoenearodenplan；notattheoffice。uponhearingthisnews；salanderwassilentforalongtieontheotherendofthetelephonebeforeshefinallyagreed。
shehadplannedtoeethiathisoffice；exactlylikelasttie。nowshewasforcedtoseehiinunfailiarterritory。theeetingwassetforfridayevening。shehadbeengiventhebuildingcode；andsheranghisdoorbellat8：30；halfanhourlaterthanagreed。thatwashowuchtieshehadneededinthedarknessofthebuilding’sstairwelltorunthroughherplanonelasttie；consideralternatives；steelherself；andobilisethecourageshewouldneed。
at8：00blokvistswitchedoffhisputerandputonhisoutdoorclothing。heleftthelightsoninhisoffice。outsidetheskywasbrightwithstarsandthenightwasfreezing。hewalkedbrisklyupthehill；pastvanger’shouse；takingtheroadto？sterg？rden。beyondvanger’shouseheturnedofftotheleft；followinganuglierpathalongtheshore。thelightedbuoysflickeredoutonthewater；andthelightsfrohedestadgleaedprettilyinthedark。heneededfreshair；butaboveallhewantedtoavoidthespyingeyesofisabellavanger。notfarfromartinvanger’shouseherejoinedtheroadandarrivedatceciliavanger’sdoorjustafter8：30。theywentstraighttoherbedroo。
theyetonceortwiceaweek。ceciliahadnotonlybeehisloverouthereinhisplaceofexile；shehadalsobeethepersonhehadbeguntoconfidein。itwassignificantlyorerewardingdiscussingharrietvangerwithherthanwithheruncle。
theplanbegantogowrongalostfrothestart。
bjuranwaswearingabathrobewhenheopenedthedoortohisapartent。hewascrossatherarrivinglateandotionedherbrusquelyinside。shewaswearingblackjeans；ablackt…shirt；andtheobligatoryleatherjacket。sheworeblackbootsandasallrucksackwithastrapacrossherchest。
“haven’tyouevenlearnedtotellthetie？”bjuransaid。salanderdidnotreply。shelookedaround。theapartentlookeduchasshehadexpectedafterstudyingthebuildingplansinthearchivesofthecityzoningoffice。thelight…colouredfurniturewasbirchandbeech…wood。
“eon；”bjuransaidinafriendliertone。heputhisararoundhershouldersandledherdownahallintotheapartent’sinterior。nosalltalk。heopenedthedoortothebedroo。therewasnodoubtastowhatservicessalanderwasexpecte. comerfor。
shetookaquicklookaround。bachelorfurnishings。adoublebedwithahighbedsteadofstainlesssteel。alowchestofdrawersthatalsofunctionedasabedsidetable。bedsidelapswithutedlighting。awardrobewithairroralongoneside。acanechairandasalldeskinthecornernexttothedoor。hetookherbythehandandledhertothebed。
“tellewhatyouneedoneyforthistie。moreputeraessories？”
“food；”shesaid。
“ofcourse。howstupidofe。youissedourlasteeting。”heplacedhishandunderherchinandliftedherfacesotheireyeset。“howareyou？”
sheshrugged。
“haveyouthoughtaboutwhatisaidlasttie？”
“aboutwhat？”
“lisbeth；don’tactanyorestupidthanyouare。iwantustobegoodfriendsandtohelpeachotherout。”
shesaidnothing。advokatbjuranresistedanipulsetogiveheraslap. comutsoelifeintoher。
“didyoulikeourgrown…upgaefrolasttie？”
“no。”
heraisedhiseyebrows。
“lisbeth；don’tbefoolish。”
“ineedoneytobuyfood。”
“butthat’swhatwetalkedaboutlasttie。ifyou’renicetoe；i’llbenicetoyou。butifyou’rejustgoingtocausetrouble…”hisgriponherchintightenedandshetwistedaway。
“iwantyoney。whatdoyouwantetodo？”
“youknohatiwant。”hegrabbedhershoulderandpulledhertowardsthebed。
“wait；”salandersaidhastily。shegavehiaresignedlookandthennoddedcurtly。shetookoffherrucksackandleatherjacketwiththerivetsandlookedaround。sheputherjacketonthechair；setherrucksackontheroundtable；andtookseveralhesitantstepstothebed。thenshe. comped；asifshehadcoldfeet。bjurancaecloser。
“wait；”shesaidonceore；inatoneasiftosaythatshewastryingtotalksenseintohi。“idon’twanttohavetosuckyourdickeverytieineedoney。”
theexpressiononbjuran’sfacesuddenlychanged。heslappedherhard。salanderopenedhereyeswide；butbeforeshecouldreact；hegrabbedherbytheshoulderandthrewherontothebed。theviolencecaughtherbysurprise。whenshetriedtoturnover；hepressedherdownonthebedandstraddledher。
likethetiebefore；shewasnoatchforhiintersofphysicalstrength。heronlychanceoffightingbackwasifshecouldhurthibyscratchinghiseyesorusingsoesortofweapon。butherplannedscenariohadalreadygoohell。shit；shethoughtwhenherippedoffhert…shirt。sherealisedwithterrifyingclaritythatshewasoutofherdepth。
sheheardhiopenthedresserdrawernexttothebedandcaughttheclankingsoundofetal。atfirstshedidnotunderstandwhatwashappening；thenshesawthehandcuffsclosearoundherwrist。hepulledupherar；placedthehandcuffsaroundoneofthebedposts；andlockedherotherhand。itdidnottakehilon. comulloffherbootsandjeans。thenhetookoffherknickersandheldtheinhishand。
“youhavetolearntotruste；lisbeth；”hesaid。“i’goingtoteachyouhowthisgrown…upgaeisplayed。ifyoudon’ttreatewell；youhavetobepunished。whenyou’renicetoe；we’llbefriends。”
hesatastrideheragain。
“soyoudon’tlikeanalsex；”hesaid。
salanderopenedherouthtoscrea。hegrabbedherhairandstuffedtheknickersinherouth。shefelthiputtingsoethingaroundherankles；spreadherlegsapartandtiethesothatshewaslyingtherepletelyvulnerable。sheheardhiovingaroundtheroobutshecouldnotseethroughthet…shirtaroundherface。ittookhiseveralinutes。shecouldhardlybreathe。thenshefeltanexcruciatingpainasheforcedsoethingupheranus。
ceciliavangerstillhadarulethatblokvistwasnottostayallnight。soetieafter2：00intheorninghebegantodresswhileshelaynakedonthebed；silingathi。
“ilikeyou；mikael。ilikeyourpany。”
“ilikeyoutoo。”
shepulledhibacktothebedandtookofftheshirthehadjustputon。hestayedforoneorehour。
whenlaterhepassedbyvanger’shouse；hewassurehesawoneofthecurtainsshiftupstairs。
salanderwasallowe. comutonherclothes。itwas4：00onsaturdayorning。shepickedupherleatherjacketandrucksackandhobbledtothefrontdoor；wherehewaswaitingforher；showeredandneatlydressed。hegaveherachequefor2；500kronor。
“i’lldriveyouhoe；”hesaid；andopenedthedoor。
shecrossedthethreshold；outoftheapartent；andturnedtofacehi。herbodylookedfragileandherfacewasswollenfrocrying；andhealostrecoiledwhenheethereyes。neverinhislifehadheseensuchnaked；soulderinghatred。salanderlookedjustasderangedashercaseindicated。
“no；”shesaid；soquietlythathebarelyheardtheword。“icangethoeonyown。”
heputahandonhershoulder。
“areyousure？”
shenodded。hisgriponhershouldertightened。
“reeberwhatweagreed。you’llebackherenextsaturday。”
shenoddedagain。cowed。helethergo。
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salanderspenttheweekinbedwithpaininherabdoen；bleedingfroherrectu；andlessvisiblewoundsthatwouldtakelongertoheal。whatshehadgohroughwasverydifferentfrothefirstrapeinhisoffice；itwasnolongeraatterofcoercionanddegradation。thiswassysteaticbrutality。
sherealiseduchtoolatethatshehadutterlyisjudgedbjuran。
shehadassuedhewasonapowertripandlikedtodoinate；notthathewasanall…outsadist。hehadkeptherinhandcuffshalfthenight。severaltiesshebelievedheeanttokillher；andatonepointhehadpressedapillowoverherfaceuntilshethoughtshewasgoin. comassout。
shedidnotcry。
apartfrothetearsofpurephysicalpainsheshednotasingletear。whenshelefttheapartentsheadeherwaywithdifficultytothetaxistandatodenplan。withdifficultysheclibedthestairstoherownapartent。sheshoweredandwipedthebloodfrohergenitals。thenshedrankapintofwaterwithtworohypnolandstubledtoherbedandpulledtheduvetoverherhead。
shewokeupatiddayonsunday；eptyofthoughtsandwithconstantpaininherhead；usclesandabdoen。shegotup；dranktwoglassesofkefir；andateanapple。thenshetooktwooresleepingpillsandwentbacktobed。
shedidnotfeellikegettingupuntiltuesday。shewentoutandboughtabigboxofbilly’spanpizza；stucktwooftheintheicrowave；andfilledatheroswithcoffee。shespentthatnightontheinter；readingarticlesandthesesonthepsychopathologyofsadis。
shefoundonearticlepublishedbyawoen’sgroupintheunitedstatesinwhichtheauthorclaiedthatthesadistchosehis“relationships”withalostintuitiveprecision；thesadist’sbestvictiwastheonewhovoluntarilywenttohibecauseshedidnotthinkshehadanychoice。thesadistspecialisedinpeoplewhowereinapositionofdependence。
advokatbjuranhadchosenherasavicti。
thattoldhersoethingaboutthewayshewasviewedbyotherpeople。
onfriday；aweekafterthesecondrape；shewalkedfroherapartenttoatattooparlourinthehornstulldistrict。shehadadeanappointent；andtherewerenoothercustoersintheshop。theownernodded；recognisingher。
shechoseasiplelittletattoodepictinganarrowbandandaskedtohaveitputonherankle。shepointed。
“theskinisverythinthere。it’sgoingtohurtalot；”saidthetattooartist。
“that’sok；”salandersaid；takingoffherjeansandputtingherlegup。
“ok；aband。youalreadyhaveloadsoftattoos。areyousureyouwantanotherone？”
“it’sareinder。”
blokvistleftthecaféwhensusanneclosedat2：00onsaturdayafternoon。hehadspenttheorningtypinguphisnotesinhisi。hewalkedtokonsuandboughtsoefoodandcigarettesbeforehewenthoe。hehaddiscoveredfriedsausagewithpotatoesandbeets—adishhehadneverbeenfondofbutforsoereasonitseeedperfectlysuitedtoacabininthecountry。
ataround7：00intheeveninghestoodbythekitchenwindow；thinking。ceciliavangerhadnotcalled。hehadrunintoherthatafternoonwhenshewasbuyingbreadatthecafé；butshehadbeenlostinherownthoughts。itdidnotseelikelythatshewouldcallthisevening。heglancedatthelittletvthathealostneverused。insteadhesatatthekitchenbenchandopenedaysterybysuegrafton。
salanderreturnedattheagreed…upontietobjuran’sapartentnearodenplan。heletherinwithapolite；welingsile。
“andhowareyoudoingtoday；dearlisbeth？”
shedidnotreply。heputanararoundhershoulder。
“isupposeitwasabitroughlasttie；”hesaid。“youlookedalittlesubdued。”
shegavehiacrookedsileandhefeltasuddenpangofuncertainty。thisgirlisnotallthere。ihavetoreeberthat。hewonderedifshewouldearound。
“shallwegointothebedroo？”salandersaid。
ontheotherhand；sheaybewithit…。todayi’lltakeiteasyonher。builduphertrust。hehadalreadyputoutthehandcuffsonthechestofdrawers。itwasnotuntiltheyreachedthebedthatbjuranrealisedthatsoethingwasaiss。
shewastheoneleadinghitothebed；nottheotherwayaround。he. compedandgaveherapuzzledlookwhenshepulledsoethingoutofherjacketpocketwhichhethoughtwasaobiletelephone。thenhesawhereyes。
“saygoodnight；”shesaid。
sheshovedthetaserintohisleftarpitandfiredoff75；000volts。whenhislegsbegantogivewaysheputhershoulderagainsthiandusedallherstrengt. comushhidownontothebed。
ceciliavangerfeltalittletipsy。shehaddecidednottotelephoneblokvist。theirrelationshiphaddevelopedintoaridiculousbedroofarce；inwhichblokvisthadtotiptoearoundtryingtogettoherhouseunn